It's the most wonderful time of the year :)

I love the week of the musical. The late nights, the early make-up calls, the dressing room talks, the children's matinee. Love it. Love it. LOVE IT!

However, I'm really tired. And have lots of homework.

See you at Oklahoma!

To quote Meredith Grey...

"Too often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can’t have. Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. And as tough as wanting something can be, the people who suffer the most are those who don’t know what they want."

. . .

I'm in a battle of head versus heart. It seems like it's always this way. I don't know what I want. I don't know what to do. I have a lot of questions, and I don't feel like I have the time to figure them out. I guess figuring things out comes with time...I just need to be patient. I know I do, but...I don't even know what I'm trying to say. This is bad...

He knows what I need...

My mom's cancer is gone. Absolutely gone. No trace. She beat it.

I'm so excited that I can't stand it. God puts us through these trials for a reason...I just wish I understood it more. And I wish that I was truly capable of saying that God is good and has a reason for what happens during the rough times. Why do people have cancer? Why do people die? I'll never understand it.

But until then....praise God.

"Bless her little heart"

I just sewed through my finger in the costume shop. Public safety had to pick me up and everything. It's not bad enough for the ER...but it sure feels like it. And I can only type with one hand.

And to think, I'm complaining about this, while my mom is recovering from having surgery on her back.

Atleast the weather outside is beautiful.

Many a new day will dawn before I do...

Today was rather splendid.

After getting ten (yes, ten) hours of sleep last night, I woke up and was [almost] on time for my 8 o'clock science class. I'm doing really well in there, and that makes me glad. Then I went to chapel, and it was only 20 minutes long! YEEEE! Vocal performance was next, which is always nice. I then had an hour-long break and was able to talk to Lucas (for the first time since Sunday) on Skype, which was acting up a bit. BUT, I got to talk to him regardless. After we talked, I went to class at Midnight Oil where my teacher bought us drinks.

My friends, it is October. It is beginning to feel like fall, and I am so excited! It is my favorite month, my favorite season....oh I just love it. There's nothing not to love!

My friends have been great to me and for that I am also thankful.

I'm also directing a one-act in February, and I'm already in production for it. I need to get on the ball with things, but I think it's gonna be a pretty good show. It's called "Why Do We Laugh?" by Stephen Gregg. Yeah..again, I just need to get organized with my things. And tech crew. Gahh.

That's all for now. There's work to be done! And chai to be made. Mmmmm.