mood ring.

My moods have been SO up and down lately. And this is a personal check point that I need to have to remind myself to CHILL OUT sometimes. Not everything is a horrible as it may seem at first.

To keep those of you who care updated: my show is really shaping up. Rehearsals are going well and I feel like I've been really productive in the last 2 weeks. More to come on that soon, since my show goes up...well...soon.

I think I need more hours in a day...

I love Harding so much...

. . . that I think I'm making my 4.5 years here into a full 5 years.

::runs into a corner and hides:::

It's not official yet, but I've been thinking about it. And I will absolutely HATE my next two semesters if I have to take 20 hours for both of them. And then I'll be one of those awkward people who graduate in the Fall Semester...where nobody thinks you're graduating and so nobody cares to say goodbye. (WE MISS YOU, JARED!) But seriously, I'd rather ENJOY my last semester(s) here at school. And with the Bible and chapel requirements, it's almost an achievement if one graduates in 4 semesters anyway. AND I have an excuse . . .I dropped my intended major and added a double major halfway through my sophomore year. Genious, right? So I think I might do that.

I'm in no hurry to graduate, anyway. There's nothing pulling me out. "The rest of my life" will still be waiting for me when I leave.

I meet with my advisor on Wednesday. I'll let you know how that goes.

OH! And I have encouraging friends :)

I'm not lying here.

I refuse to be tied down to thoughts of "what was" or "what could have been".

I'm living for "what IS".
And I'm planning for "what will be".

I am focusing on who I AM.
And who I want to be.

This is new for me.
I'd like encouragement.

Aaaaaaaaaand scene.

Lost

Just because I’m losing
Doesn’t mean I’m lost
Doesn’t mean I’ll stop
Doesn’t mean I will cross

Just because I’m hurting
Doesn’t mean I’m hurt
Doesn’t mean I didn’t get what I deserve
No better and no worse

I just got lost
Every river that I’ve tried to cross
And every door I ever tried was locked
Ooh-Oh, And I’m just waiting till the shine wears off…

Sometimes, I feel like I make sense...

If you hear this wherever you are, just know I need you here, I need you near me now.

The semester started today, and I hit the ground running. Classes and meetings and rehearsals. Busy. But a good busy. I think.
I'm bummed out about things that I just need to GET OVER. So that's what I plan on doing. All the while planning things for my play....which goes up sooner than I think.
I was also told today that I was hard to talk to.
Awesome.
I'm going to be so busy until my play is over, and then I sit back and watch my friends do something that I want so desperately.
And no, you don't get it.
Next week are auditions for Scrooge, so I've been keeping pretty busy with audition material for that so that I'm fully prepared. I'm excited...I think.


Don't ever change.