Wednesday, April 30, 2008

My thoughts are as such:

I wish I was at another school getting my BFA.
Spain is officially stealing my heart.
I think I want to cut my hair.
I'm probably taking hip-hop dance classes this summer.
My voice lessons are going to focus on my upper range.
Summer vaca starts in 10 days.
I'm obsessed (again) with Little Women-the Musical.
I need to go tanning.
I need to get a new car.

Sorry for such an A.D.D. entry.
That's how I've been feeling lately.

kbye! <3

Sunday, April 27, 2008

So...this one time...I went to Memphis...

...and saw "The 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee"!
My mom didn't really understand why I was going to see it, since I saw it in January before it left Broadway, but it was beyond worth it!

(he played my favorite character, Leaf Coneybear)

I haven't been able to stop smiling since the show started this afternoon!

Life is good.


Saturday, April 26, 2008

I don't really have a title for this:

Please pray for my dad. He's in the hospital. Again. My mom is worried. mom never worries.

He hasn't eaten since Tuesday. The doctors think he needs surgery, so they plan to operate on Monday. The thing is- he's heart isn't ready to deal with an operation. That isn't what they will operate, but his heart needs to continue BEATING during the operation, correct? Things aren't right, people. The conditions are not what they should be. My dad had 2 heart attacks when I was in kindergarten (any jokes about me being a terror child and I'll slap you), but my mom told me that his heart really hasn't been checked on in about 10 years.

::blink blink::


And so I put on my strong front. I'm getting so good at this.

Friday, April 25, 2008

I have a problem...

I don't believe people when they say they care about me.

And I don't know how to go about changing that.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Plane tickets

I was just looking for plane tickets online and realized that I'm buying a one-way ticket home.

Which means that I won't be flying back anytime soon.


17 days and then what?

This trip home may be the hardest for me yet.

That's all I'm writing about this now.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Becoming restless...

My friends, I am ACHING to perform on a stage again. It's getting to the point where I'm actually excited for Oklahoma! this fall. You don't have to tell me that's ridiculous- I already know. Auditions are next week and I couldn't be happier. The choice of show...well...not my favorite, but I hope I learn to love it.
I'm also hoping to audition for some shows this summer. Getting back in May already cuts out auditions for 3 shows that I really wish I could have taken a stab at, being:
The Pajama Game
and Damn Yankees

BUT...I still have some opportunities, including:
Kiss Me, Kate
The Scarlet Pimpernel
and Ragtime

And hey, if none of them work out, I'll just get to work even more! Exciting, right? ::cough cough::

Who am I kidding?

Sunday, April 6, 2008

"He only takes the best."

This may not make sense to a lot of you, but it does to me.

I feel like when tragedy strikes someone, however undeserving they are for that event, that they are strong enough to make it through. That I wouldn't be able to handle whatever it was that happened to them, but that they are strong enough. This isn't saying that they deserve it, or it's because they are so strong that it happened, but rather that they can survive. That they are admirably strong people who will set an example through their strength.

Was that dumb? Should I not have said that? I don't know what I'm trying to say..

My best friend's father passed away in a car accident on Saturday morning. It's not fair. But nothing is! NOTHING is fair! I am flying home on Wednesday and will be back at school by Thursday night. I need to be there. I need to be where I'm needed. I need to bless others! I need to help. I need to comfort. It's not about me.

I am blessed everyday. So much. I am thankful for my life. I am thankful for the people I call my friends. I am truly blessed by everyone I come in contact with everyday. I try to live each day to the fullest, because we don't know what will happen. We don't know what tomorrow will bring, and that is the truth!

My friends- tell people in your life that you value them! I don't do that as much as I should.

less than three

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Thinking about it first

I'm sorry that I haven't posted in about a week. That's because I don't want every one of my entries to be a rant. I don't need to complain--There is SO much to be thankful for! Why complain about my problems? Sure, there will be times when I do vent...rant...whine...whatever, but I'm hoping that they are few and far between. Also, I hope that when those posts come that others will be able to read them and learn something from them, and maybe offer advice.

Is that not what blogs are for?

No? Oh...this IS an open forum for whining?

Why didn't anyone tell me?

Oh well. I just had swiss cake rolls and now I'm off to class with the Boss.

Life. Is. So. Beautiful.