Saturday, December 20, 2008
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Today Jami's mom is having a bunch of us over for Christmas lunch. She's so cute :)
Then it's the theatre Christmas partyyyyy. Can't wait.
(Did you notice that I left out the part where tomorrow is FILLED with studying for finals? As is Monday...and Tuesday...and Wednesday.)
Friday, December 12, 2008
MY DREAM HAS COME TRUE!
Haha. All joking aside, it's going to be a pretty great show. I'm not sure how I feel about the Christmas show at Halloween thing, but we'll make it work. We always do.
Dead week is over today. I have two more classes left to go to, and I took the weekend off, which is a huge deal for an RA. (we only get 4 weekends off per semester)
My finals week is going to be pretty packed. Monday is completely free for me, but then I have 3 finals on Tuesday, 2 on Wednesday, and one on Thursday. I'll be home by noon on Friday because my flight leaves so stinkin' early.
Aaaaaaaaaaand I'm done.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Monday, December 8, 2008
Not too much to update from my end. This weekend was filled with plays (my brother was awesome! yay!) and a wedding and homework and read-thrus and work.
Finals next week, and then I'm homeward bound, baby!
[I'm skipping "Christmas chapel" tomorrow. Does that make me a bad person?]
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Sunday, November 30, 2008
I will confess to you here and now that I am beginning to read Twilight. I heard enough about it from all of my friends this summer that I felt like seeing it on Thursday, so I did. It was pretty good. I am looking forward to being someone who freaks out about future movies and how hott Edward Cullen is. You can try to sway me otherwise, but I don't think this could have come at a more perfect time.
I need Christmas break so bad. I miss my mom a lot. I haven't seen anyone from home in almost 4 months! Hmmmm...I should stop whining? Yeah.
Did we ever sing the same song?
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Saturday, November 8, 2008
My mom had some more health issues this week, but one of them was fixed yesterday. I just wish that all of this could go back to normal, you know? I wish the health of my parents wasn't such a pressing issue everyday of my life. I guess it never will go back to normal, but I'm not used to it yet.
What am I excited for? My friends, I will tell you. I have auditions for my play on Monday! Like, I'm the director: I choose the cast, I create the rehearsal schedules, I do the blocking, I make the decisions. I really feel that I'm ready for this. I'm ready to lead a team to create some beautiful theatre that will make an audience feel good.
Two more weeks of classes, and then a week off for Thanksgiving. I'm not going home, but I am going to TEXAS with my roommate Tessa! Okay, saying roommate sounds like we're not close....she's my best friend. We're gonna have a great time! And then we get back and just have two more weeks of classes and then finals....and then....then....I GET TO GO HOME! Oh man, I am itchin' to go home so baddddddd!
I guess that's it. I'm going to see 2 plays tonight, and then do some homework? And say goodbye to Cielo...since she's leaving school tomorrow and transferring :(
Sunday, November 2, 2008
I also fell off the 4-wheeler. It was NOT fun. I have bruises all over my legs and arms. Wah wah wah.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
However, I'm really tired. And have lots of homework.
See you at Oklahoma!
Saturday, October 11, 2008
. . .
I'm in a battle of head versus heart. It seems like it's always this way. I don't know what I want. I don't know what to do. I have a lot of questions, and I don't feel like I have the time to figure them out. I guess figuring things out comes with time...I just need to be patient. I know I do, but...I don't even know what I'm trying to say. This is bad...
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
I'm so excited that I can't stand it. God puts us through these trials for a reason...I just wish I understood it more. And I wish that I was truly capable of saying that God is good and has a reason for what happens during the rough times. Why do people have cancer? Why do people die? I'll never understand it.
But until then....praise God.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
And to think, I'm complaining about this, while my mom is recovering from having surgery on her back.
Atleast the weather outside is beautiful.
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
After getting ten (yes, ten) hours of sleep last night, I woke up and was [almost] on time for my 8 o'clock science class. I'm doing really well in there, and that makes me glad. Then I went to chapel, and it was only 20 minutes long! YEEEE! Vocal performance was next, which is always nice. I then had an hour-long break and was able to talk to Lucas (for the first time since Sunday) on Skype, which was acting up a bit. BUT, I got to talk to him regardless. After we talked, I went to class at Midnight Oil where my teacher bought us drinks.
My friends, it is October. It is beginning to feel like fall, and I am so excited! It is my favorite month, my favorite season....oh I just love it. There's nothing not to love!
My friends have been great to me and for that I am also thankful.
I'm also directing a one-act in February, and I'm already in production for it. I need to get on the ball with things, but I think it's gonna be a pretty good show. It's called "Why Do We Laugh?" by Stephen Gregg. Yeah..again, I just need to get organized with my things. And tech crew. Gahh.
That's all for now. There's work to be done! And chai to be made. Mmmmm.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
I've been on overdrive lately. With my mind, my body, my spirit. You ever get that feeling? That feeling that everything should just stop for a little while? Yeah...
I was told from an outside source that I needed to update more often, but sometimes I only ramble, and most of the time it's only important to me, so it doesn't really matter. Oh well.
My life for the next month will be consumed with homework, tests, and musical rehearsals. Not that I really care, I'm just stating the fact.
Legally Blonde is closing on Broadway on October 19th. I was planning on going in December. So now I have to see the tour in DC in December with friends from home, and then again in Memphis in March. Oh well...it'll be worth it. I just really wanted to see it in New York. Bummmmer.
Oh, and I just decided to love Angels and Airwaves again?!
Again, I'm too random.
I'm going to Amber's today. Because I can. And maybe I can do laundry there. Hmmm...that would be most excellent.
Monday, September 15, 2008
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Cause I'm still trying to figure it out
Don't know what's down this road, I'm just walking
Trying to see through the rain coming down
Even though I'm not the only one
Who feels the way I do
I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
oh I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Then I found out that my mother is in the hospital again. She didn't even call and tell us. Nor did my father. Or sister. My brother called her to ask about school related things and was informed this way.
::turns up music and falls on bed::
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Monday, August 18, 2008
. . .
Anyway, I need to be more encouraging to those I come in contact with. I try, but I'm not to where I want to be. So I'm telling you here and now that I'm going to work harder. Sorry that was random, it's just been on my mind lately.
I've been in Searcy since yesterday. It feels weird. There are faces I won't see, and I've seen faces that I didn't think I would. I guess that's Harding for you.
I'm tired already and haven't finished unpacking.
BUT!....I was on time this morning :) I'm turning over a new leaf! Okay...maybe...I'll let you know how tomorrow goes.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
#1- Opening night is Friday, and it's gonna be AMAZING!
#2- Monday, July 21st, will be the happiest day of my summer, as I am going to Colorado for 4 days. AHHHH!!!
I love my friends. I love nights like tonight, where you just sit around at the diner, shooting inside jokes at each other, sharing stories and laughing so hard it feels like you're going to vomit. THAT'S good time. Am I sick to think so? Maybe. But hey, you probably wish you had friends like mine ;)
I need to stop being so inconsistent as a person.
I'll work on that.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Tomorrow is more good times with good friends.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
All that to say: I can't wait until I'm a director.
I also can't wait to perform on that very same stage. It was at the Broadway Theatre of Pitman, the same place where I'll be singing and dancing for 4 weekends in a row come July 18th. Boy, am I excited. This place is NICE!
Would you like to know what else is nice?
Really cold grape juice.
OH! And being offered an AMAZING job! I'm working Monday-Friday for the rest of the summer babysitting a 2 year old girl. I'm there from 9-5, have nights free for rehearsals and such, and the pay is fantastic! I am so blessed by this opportunity, I can't even begin to describe.
Sunday, June 8, 2008
Bryan came over tonight. He peeled my back for about an hour and ten minutes...I wish I was kidding. Sunburn ate my life last week and I'm slowly starting to win it back. Though the sun also made my lips blister. Doesn't that just SOUND gross? I mean...eww. So I've been trying to feel better by isolating myself...which I've found doesn't work. I need people. Constantly.
I also need to find a one act to direct next spring. I'm such a slacker. I want it to be really great...I just can't find any that are worthy enough. Maybe I'm not giving them a fair chance...I don't know. Boofasa.
My mother starts chemo and radiation tomorrow. Sorry I don't talk about it much...it's just...I don't know. Keep her in your prayers. And my family, too. Maybe even me. But asking for that is selfish...
Like, when I should be sleeping.
Anyway. . .
I think I dream too much. Ha. Funny that I'm writing about dreaming when I'm awake. But really. There's so much I want in life. I'm pulling myself in twelve different directions. I wan't to be a performer. I want to be a teacher. I want to be a wife. I want to be a mom. I want to be a singer. I want to be an actress. I want to be a...better person. Can I explain? Please, lend me your ears.
There's a huge part of me that wants to perform for the rest of my life. Live in a big city. Get a studio apartment. Audition for shows every couple of months. Be on stage with famous people. Learn from the talent of others. Be somebody.
To put it in simple terms- The new MTV show "Legally Blonde: The Search For The Next Elle Woods" absolutely KILLS me. I'd give almost anything to be where those girls are, doing exactly what they're doing.
I'm so "performance-antsy" (that's what I'll call it for now) that I'm taking dance classes starting this week with my brother. Jazz Technique. Maybe even Musical Theatre Dance, too, if it's open. I just need to be...doing...something...all the time. It's like my rehearsal time and the chance to perform in front of nearly sold-out audiences 11 times isn't enough for the summer.
Next comes the singing lessons...which may or may not be put on hold because of the money situation. But even still, I'm pressing my vocal coach to push my upper range and teach me arias and ballads I never dreamed of singing.
Why do I want so much when I'm going to be a high school teacher? Or is me saying that just limiting myself?
Why am I pushing the performance thing so much? I'm not as good as my friends.
Sorry for wasting your time. This is just what I think about. All. The. Time.
My mom made a joke around midnight about how I'd be up at 4 in the morning and that we can "girl chat" then.
She's asleep on the couch. I guess she couldn't hold out for me.
And here I am, writing to myself.
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Monday, June 2, 2008
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
I'm also thinking that I have a problem with my sleeping (or lack thereof) habits. I'm tired all the time, and I can't sleep normal hours. In fact, I'm about to go take a nap. I might go to the doctor about it.
I'm in Damn Yankees! And it's a paid gig, too! How sweet is that? We have 11 shows total. My brother is in it too. I'm beyond excited.
Now all I need to do is find a job. Boo.
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Anyway, I really need to get to packing. I need to be out of here by Saturday. Most of my girls will be gone by Thursday.
Did I ever mention that I hate goodbyes? They're probably one of my least favorite things in the world. Part of it is because I have self-diagnosed myself as having Athazagoraphobia...which is a fear of being forgotten. Yeah yeah...I don't know. It's just how I feel sometimes.
I'll be home Monday. I can NOT wait until I get to the Philly airport. Oh my goodness...it's the best feeling. Ever.
Oh...and I saw "Baby Mama" tonight. It was okay. The end.
Thursday, May 1, 2008
This just in: I've been complaining too much lately. I'm sorry.
I need to thank Amber for her last doubleshot last night. I wouldn't have been able to stay up til 3 a.m. and write most of my paper without it. I know it was a big deal to give that up, and I am extremely grateful.
Oklahoma cast meeting was last night. I'm actually excited. We were all advised to work out over the summer because of how intense dance rehearsals will be...which means I'll have to work even harder than I was planning.
I'm ready for dead week to be over. I'm ready for all of my exams to be done with.
I want to sing. I want to dance. I need to perform.
Oh yeah..and like...work too.
The title of this entry is from our Nathan Lane project for Theatre History...and well...let's just say that I hope you get a laugh out of it.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Spain is officially stealing my heart.
I think I want to cut my hair.
I'm probably taking hip-hop dance classes this summer.
My voice lessons are going to focus on my upper range.
Summer vaca starts in 10 days.
I'm obsessed (again) with Little Women-the Musical.
I need to go tanning.
I need to get a new car.
Sorry for such an A.D.D. entry.
That's how I've been feeling lately.
Sunday, April 27, 2008
My mom didn't really understand why I was going to see it, since I saw it in January before it left Broadway, but it was beyond worth it!
I GOT TO MEET ANDREW KEENAN-BOLGER!
(he played my favorite character, Leaf Coneybear)
I haven't been able to stop smiling since the show started this afternoon!
Life is good.
Saturday, April 26, 2008
...my mom never worries.
He hasn't eaten since Tuesday. The doctors think he needs surgery, so they plan to operate on Monday. The thing is- he's heart isn't ready to deal with an operation. That isn't what they will operate, but his heart needs to continue BEATING during the operation, correct? Things aren't right, people. The conditions are not what they should be. My dad had 2 heart attacks when I was in kindergarten (any jokes about me being a terror child and I'll slap you), but my mom told me that his heart really hasn't been checked on in about 10 years.
And so I put on my strong front. I'm getting so good at this.
Friday, April 25, 2008
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Which means that I won't be flying back anytime soon.
17 days and then what?
This trip home may be the hardest for me yet.
That's all I'm writing about this now.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
I'm also hoping to audition for some shows this summer. Getting back in May already cuts out auditions for 3 shows that I really wish I could have taken a stab at, being:
The Pajama Game
and Damn Yankees
BUT...I still have some opportunities, including:
Kiss Me, Kate
The Scarlet Pimpernel
And hey, if none of them work out, I'll just get to work even more! Exciting, right? ::cough cough::
Who am I kidding?
Sunday, April 6, 2008
I feel like when tragedy strikes someone, however undeserving they are for that event, that they are strong enough to make it through. That I wouldn't be able to handle whatever it was that happened to them, but that they are strong enough. This isn't saying that they deserve it, or it's because they are so strong that it happened, but rather that they can survive. That they are admirably strong people who will set an example through their strength.
Was that dumb? Should I not have said that? I don't know what I'm trying to say..
My best friend's father passed away in a car accident on Saturday morning. It's not fair. But nothing is! NOTHING is fair! I am flying home on Wednesday and will be back at school by Thursday night. I need to be there. I need to be where I'm needed. I need to bless others! I need to help. I need to comfort. It's not about me.
I am blessed everyday. So much. I am thankful for my life. I am thankful for the people I call my friends. I am truly blessed by everyone I come in contact with everyday. I try to live each day to the fullest, because we don't know what will happen. We don't know what tomorrow will bring, and that is the truth!
My friends- tell people in your life that you value them! I don't do that as much as I should.
less than three
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Is that not what blogs are for?
No? Oh...this IS an open forum for whining?
Why didn't anyone tell me?
Oh well. I just had swiss cake rolls and now I'm off to class with the Boss.
Life. Is. So. Beautiful.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
I absolutely hate saying that I can't do something.
But I can't do everything. I can't fix everything. I can't control everything.
So I'm posting this so that I can read it the next time I think that I can.
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.
Monday, March 24, 2008
I procrastinate WAY too much. I know that everyone says they do it, but I'm fairly certain that if there was a competition, I'd win. An award? I'd get it.
However, I just had the best time studying with Amber. We have a lot of fun together. She even recorded my singing of the "I'll Cover You (Reprise)" from Rent. It's disturbing that I can sing that low. Ew. And now the whole youtube community will become aware of it. Double ew.
I'm going to go to sleep now, only so I can complain about how tired I am tomorrow morning. I'll probably become BFFs with Java City because I have so much DCB left.
Overall, I'm pleased with this weekend. I got to spend it with people that are near and dear to me. Spring Sing is a special time. I hope I get to be a part of it someday.
I need to stop getting to bed so late.